Dark Night of the Soul

Psalms 13:
1 How long, O Lord? Will you w forget me forever?
How long will you x hide your face from me?
2 How long must I take y counsel in my soul
and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?

3 z Consider and answer me, O Lord my God;
a light up my eyes, lest b I sleep the sleep of death,
4 c lest my enemy say, “I have prevailed over him,”
lest my foes rejoice because I am d shaken.

5 But I have e trusted in your steadfast love;
my heart shall f rejoice in your salvation.
6 I will sing to the Lord,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.

My mind has been really consumed with the idea of the dark night of the soul, the time that you feel like God is so far away. The scriptures comfort me to know I am not the only one that feels the weight of this type of situation, especially since church people (for the most part) would never admit they feel this. The feeling that though you never doubt God exists, he seems a million miles away…

I’d say that is the way I feel this week, and the reasons why are what really get my mind turning. If God never changes, then it has to be me. As I search my habits I realize God never walked away for a break from me, I (through my actions) started walking away from him as if I could handle things for the week. I’m like a wondering child that should stay near his parents but thinks he can wonder off, then a little time goes by and I realized I got myself lost and have to get back. No moral failures, just the honesty of person that needs to rely on God without a break.